Little Siblings

Apparently I'm not welcome to watch the season premeir of one of my favourite shows.

Half an hour ago GLEE started and I sat down to watch it.

Sister told me I couldn't change the channel, and took the remote from me. Half an hour later, on the commercial break, she changes the channel to something tottally different.

When I commented on it, she said, "Y'no what? You can go. Just go."

And now Im alone, shunned, crying because of all of the pent-up emotions I have to hold in, and wanting to punch her in the face more than I ever have before.

So, Im stuck to watching the season premeir of my favourite show on Youtube tomorrow.
Boy don't I feel special??

A Rant of Utter Anger

Sometimes people underestimate me, and sometimes people overestimate me.



I'm not 'retarded', I'm actually quite smart.

So stop insulting me.

Even as a joke.



I'm not 'your saint', I'm actually quite stressed,

angry and hurt most of the time and

dont want to listen to your damned bullshit.



So.



To those who want to insult me over and over, or treat me like absolute Garbage when I've been supporting you;


as of tonight I'm living by my own bloody rules.

I will live how I want to live.



I have been treated like shit for way too long.

Dreams

What a crappy title, hmm?

Either way, I've been thinking a lot recently... and, well, I think that I really want to major in Art (in school).
Even more, though, I think my childhood dream of becoming a Veterinarian is what I want to accomplish. I love animals, and I'm okay with blood/ gross wounds/ excetera.



During this summer I've been through more than just a few rough patches with friends, family, non-friends and total enemies.

I've turned over a new leaf.

I'm going to stop my dis-organized, lazy style and work hard for what I want. You see, the past two years of High School I've had friends BADGERING me to stay with them during lunch, during after school, excetera.
But now they're all (yes... all :( ), moving away.

Though I don't see this as a bad thing because I have phone, internet and they leave near-by. Also, well, this means I have extra time for school work, for what I want to acheive.



Everybody goes through a dark time in their life, and I think that even though I've *AHEM* been thinking some *AHEM* dark thoughts... well, I'm better now.
This doesn't mean the dark time in my life is over, per-say...

But, I've finally found a purpose in my life and damn it I'll risk a lot to get what I want.

As Nickelback says in their song "If Today Was Your Last Day";

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

I've chosen to start fighting for I want, and I'd tired of having everything handed to me.

Click Here for Nickelback's song! :)