Monday, December 13, 2010

Yelling Matches With Mum

So I came into the living room today and my mum asked me what happened with my cell phone. Confused, I said nothing, which she then said a little frustratingly "At Sherway with Daddy".

Now... The last time I was at that mall was about a month and a half ago?

So she says again, "what happened?"

And of course, me being stupid silly me get really shy, look around a lot and tell her a white lie. "I put my phone down while I went to the washroom, forgot it in there, and nobody was helping me find it so I went back to dad, giving up, when I found it in the depths of my bag."

She looks upset and says; "That's not what Nanny told me."

. So, I told my mum the full truth. I left it in the bathroom, freaked out, went back to find it. I heard my J-Pop ring tone coming from a woman's purse, and told her that if I didn't get my cell back right then I would call security.

And I get up, and start to walk away when my mum compares me to- what I heard- her. And I asked her how I was being like her. Which she shouted back, which cause me to shout back. Which made my insensitive sister interrupt me, so I flipped shit, and walked to my room. Mum again compared me to her because I walk away from my problems.

Okay... I've told my entire family that I have anger issues and when I feel like punching a hole through somebody I walk away and calm the heck down. I now know what my dad was doing every time he walked away from a conversation with my mum. Because he didn't want to hurt her or anybody else.

I admire self-control and self-awareness, and I'm not trying to say that I know exactly what people are thinking.... But come on, people. A lot of humans are like me and know how they work, what their limits are.... But a lot of others don't know. Or they don't try to know.

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